Haven't used since new years
Amphetamine was my DOC. I am so miserable and have no motivation now. I know I could easily get a few g's in about 20minutes and it's driving me insane. It's the first I've had disposable income and free time since I've stopped. I keep thinking once won't hurt me, but I know It will keep me awake for a couple of days. Just needed to put that out there as I live alone and don't have people I can talk to.
Keep it up. You've gone this long without using.. you can keep going.
Don't think about your streak of sobriety since new years.. Just think about not using for today.. and then do it again tomorrow. You are not alone, there are a lot of addicts supporting each other. Goto a meeting or keep comin back on here
that's a good start though, congrats!!
When I was getting off boi, I had to tell myself that life isn't meant to be perfect. Accepting that I wouldn't be able to do or feel the same without was really tough for me, it's such an instant solution to problems that never were addressed. But, the goods don't outweigh the bads for me, it's easy to trade your life for a rush.
In regards to lack of energy and motivation, energy levels from ice are obviously going to differ from your normal body capacity. So, hopefully that isn't a flat comparison but giving yourself more time to heal may help a lot. Drugs mess with the way we think, part of recovery will basically be putting your own brain cells back to where they were before the chemicals went in and fucked everything up. Sometimes you need to find new motivation or even getting into a solid sleep routine can help. My body started getting used to waking up at a certain time and I now am up early and am both mentally and physically ready for work by the time I leave.